Ma,

our life was and is still difficult... i cannot deny my true self any longer... twenty-seven years is enough... i had enough! so here i am, pure and not sugar coated... am i still your son?

MGP 2007

"Why is your nickname 'Earth'?"

when i was in highschool i was a perfectionist and i had developed this self-pride that drove my friends away. by the time i reached junior high, all my friends were gone! so i baptized myself as EARTH to constantly remind myself to always keep my feet on the ground... to humble myself...

"Gays, like men, will always be men - polygamous! what is your reaction to this?"

that's a very sad realization - if it was really true. all i can say is that right is right, even if everbody is against it... and wrong will always be wrong even if everyone is in favor of it. what the world doesn't understand is that we, gays, have a very BIG heart - it is sooooo big that it is capable of loving as many people as we want! and we are very intimate people, we love to share intimacy. we only have one life to live right? we are just making the most of it... lol

"There must be more to life than having everything..."

when i was younger, i dreamed of amassing everything that i thought was important - fame, fortune, wealth... but as i grew older i have realized that they can only give you temporary fulfillment. so yes, there is more to life than having everything... it's losing everything you have for the one you love...

a helping hand...

from the Tree to the Fruit...

"last night, your Mama told me a story... she told me of the abuse, the maltreatments and cruelty i did when you were growing up. God knows i didn't know! she said i did it everytime i got drunk... it shamed me to know that i was a monster then...

i cannot bring back the past nor ask for forgiveness because i know it is unforgiveable. i can only hope for your understanding. what i have done were not out of hate - it's very hard to explain. it's more of self-pride and thirst for immortality... understand that i grew up in an era where gays were not accepted... but in spite of all these, my feelings for you, the love of a father to his son, was and will never be in question...

to all your goals and aspirations... i give you my blessings!"

a thankful sibling...

"Gusto ko lang sana mag-sorry sa naging reaction ko. Hindi sa hindi kita tanggap. Matagal na kitang tinanggap. Kung ano man yung mga bagay na gagawin mo, alam ko na para saiyo yun. Mahal kita bilang ikaw... i love you because you honed me to become the person that i am now. i love you because you care and you have shown me how much you believed and loved me and how much you love our family. Thank you for everything. i am proud of what i am now because it's the best person that i can be - and that is because of you... if i would be given a chance to choose what kind of brother i would want to have... i would choose you because you are the best brother a person could ever have..."