Flattery as Morale Booster

so you think that by saying "sweet-nothings" to me you can sweep me off of my feet? a word of caution: be careful with what you say for i shall bind you with it... and the moment you fail to act upon your words, you will see that you are not half the man that you think you are! every word that you shall speak, write or whisper from this day forth shall become the law by which your strength shall be measured - fail your words and you fail your soul... trust is earned, not given... break my trust and you shall never have it again.

"when i first looked into your eyes
each breath became a thousand sighs...
my heart drummed out a thunder beat
i glowed with joy from head to feet...

when i first looked into your eyes
all time and space were paralyzed
and in that instant i was shown
a universe i had never known...
i dwell there still, in Paradise,
when i looked into your eyes..."

tinker bell

i have devoted my entire life looking for that fairy dust - it's the only thing that's keeping me from soaring high... no matter how hard i push myself to think happy thoughts, the weight of the world and the gravity of the earth keep pulling me down.

"In a world full of darkness, we all need some kind of light... whether it's a great flame that shows us how to win back what we have lost... or a powerful beacon intended to scare away unwanted monsters... or a few glowing bulbs that reveal to us the hidden truth of our past... we all need something to help us get through the night... even if it's just the tiniest glimmer of hope..."

desperate housewives

you can fool every one else BUT you can never fool your self... you think that by throwing your old stuff and rearranging your furniture you can change the way you feel? sure, the new arrangement gives you a little room to breath BUT it will take more than that to make your fears go away. just when you thought everything has fallen in to its proper place, you realize that your life is still a mess.

you never realize how irrelevant your past is until you walk the road where they took place... at the end of your day - after the reminiscing and despite all the frustrations, pain or even regrets, aren't you glad that you had moved on?

A Week of "Party Abstinence"

it's been 7 days since i last partied... the first few days were tough since i have been craving for booze, loud music and good company... but things are better for me... i realized that in the company of myself, i do not need to force a smile, fake a laughter or pretend i am happy. i decided to detach myself from everything that has been consisting my monotonous life so i could figure out what i really want. it's all about knowing what would really make you happy, right? being in the company of my parents, sisters, nephews and niece is therapeutic - they remind me, without them knowing it, of the days when i prayed and dreamed for a better life. and now, more than ever, i desire to leave the country and find fortune somewhere else... silently, i pray this desire be granted.

(i miss a few of my acquaintances, though, from the fabs.... i hope they understand why i had to do this...)

"Now it seems to me some fine things have been laid upon your table, but you only want the ones you can't get. Desperado, you ain't gettin no younger, Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin you home, and freedom, oh freedom, well that's just some people talkin. Your prison is walking through this world all alone."

every once in a while, we manage to put on a smile... but you and i know what lies beneath it, especially, when no else is watching.

A New Day Has Come...

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears. Let it fill my soul and drown my fears. Let it shatter the walls for a new sun. A new day has come. Where it was dark now there is light. Where there was pain, now there's joy. Where there was weakness, I found my strength…

real friends

It is when we are in great need that we discover who our real friends are... sadly for me, nobody even noticed i was in need of one.

lesson learned: everyone else has their own needs to even notice yours...

about me

now is really not a good time to post a description of myself because i don't have any best foot to put forward... know, though, that this blog was created as an outlet for my dying soul - an avenue for me to release the crazy thoughts that keep me awake at night and the weak flame that keeps my candles burning...