not today... not now... not ever!

i will not falter! i am sky bound - not even your sweet kiss and wet lips can stop me.... i am a leaf in the wind... watch me soar!!!!

let's cheers to that! lol

here's to our hopes and dreams...

Mantra

Goddess,

change his mind and make his heart stronger. let him take his words back and take me instead. make my world enough to make him love me for the rest of his life. make him mine and i his. make him see that the only way i can be with him is if i went away. make him thirst for me. make him crave for me. make him a man.

please... make him break his rules some more...

in silence and in the company of my self

Where do you go when you stare into nothingness?

nothing is what it seems...

you think you know... BUT you have NO idea...so stop trying to figure me out. I am more complicated than that. I am nobody's pillar of strength...

unmasked smiles

i smile a smile of hope for the others in the picture - may the rest of my life be enough to make your lives worth living for... Lance, take care of your mom...

Goddess,

how long before you break the shackles that bind me to that which i need? how long before you open the path to that which i want?

where has my youth gone? where is my young heart? has it been frozen by the cold breeze of pain that blew my years away? where is the sun? why am i seeing clouds in my sky again? what is this new lesson? what is this, Goddess?

Fragile Heart

"a fragile heart... was broken before...
i don't think it could endure another pain...
but there's a voice from deep inside of you...
that's calling out to make you realize...
that this new bond... gives inspiration...
to all who feel no love appeal no more...
so how can i break this wall around you?
that's aiding both our hearts to grow in pain?"

LimeLight...

the past few weeks have brought the limelight back into my face... and like the fruit, the light has given me sweet and sour perspectives - both of which neither gave my spectators a glimpse of the truth nor the lie... because like what all other limelights do, who i really am was lost and my viewers' imagination took over.

From the first moment i submitted my desire to step up, the community witnessed how my true potentials unfolded. I remained a silent warrior - i carefully observed my opponents' strengths and weaknesses and memorized my flaws. In the shadows, I became a chameleon - I changed my colors as my environment changed. After all, it was a show that they wanted and i was not about to let the other star wannabes shine brighter than me. So come showtime, when they thought the galaxies were arranged according to their victorious fates, I had the universe kiss my feet! yes, i had anticipated everything and my expectations were met. and now, it seems to the world, that i have a debt to be paid...

I was prepared to be subjected to the crabs' scrutiny and lame excuses for boredom. I was prepared to be humbled by the wise's constructive criticisms. But i must admit, despite my brilliant planning, i wasn't prepared to be decieved by YOU!

YOU... who disguise your venom in a pretty smile... YOU... who think that you are irreplaceable... YOU... who think that all credits should be given to... ARE nothing but a worthless soul... your words are as empty as the black hole... GO TO HELL!

As for the rest of my spectators, keep watching! sit back... relax... the best is yet to come...

from a young admirer...

MA TERRE, MA VIE (my earth, my life)

ive broken my own rules...all that was said...all that was promised...all that was done...vulnerability is but a thread away...and yet I don't care...I don't care a bit...because you came...and you make me want to live and love another day...you're something real and special...you're not just a mere game I used to play...you held me tight...please never let go...with you I am living, not merely existing...hold me close, keep me here...with a start of something...I hope my heart and yours be near...my hand intertwined with yours...you fill the missing space...coz there came a time when I was empty...but now you're here...and im more than overwhelmed when you're with me...stay with me...never leave...you are mine...I am yours...coz now, you...and only you...can and will...complete me...