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...life is worth it... watch the tables turn...


... rebearth ...

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Here's the chance of life... get ready, set, fly high above the fear of your mind... go for it... It's hit or miss! Too late for you to quit. You gotta show 'em how bad you really want this, so...

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem. You gotta work to get the cream... on you're hopes you must lean... from your fears, you have to wean yourself... It's all or nothing, give your everything...

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My heart is still recovering from the heartbreak of another kind... I'm still drying my tears... getting over my own fears in my life... So I wanna make sure this time that I'm strong enough too give it my all...

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You gotta live your dreams... So don't you be afraid... Just set the pace, and take the lead... It's your time to shine... Please believe...

Monday, December 24, 2007

whispered prayer...

elucidate, dear Goddess, my ambiguous fate...
elucidate, dear Goddess, my ambiguous fate...
elucidate, dear Goddess, my ambiguous fate...

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

the cold hearted winter ghost has come at last...


i have endured the cold nights of negative degrees... i have endured the cold and strong winds that blew my scarf away and pushed me a few steps backwards... i have endured the sadness that comes along with separations and goodbyes... but i don't think i could endure the cold reality that once again... i am alone...

my goals and responsibilities are crystal clear to me... i know what has and needs to be done... i know how much time i have left to accomplish what i have assigned myself to do... but i dont know how much longer i could sleep alone...

my body craves for human touch and my soul is parched... my spirit is searching for its magical intercourse... where is my knight-in-shining-armour?

goddess forbid - i am starting to feel that no matter where i go, the loneliness will find its way to sting me again... is there any way to be freed from this emptiness? am i asking too much?

how much longer until this penance is over?

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

loyalty


goddess... today i felt obliged to explain myself to a stranger... and as i did... i felt my humanity evade me... i felt that i have been slowly transformed into someone... something... immaterial... i need not be reminded of that - i already feel that way. but i felt i needed to do it - to remind myself why i am here... what pushed me to leave home and chase an unknown horizon... and for a while i believed the stranger as she stared at me like i am a bad guy... for a while i saw myself as the person she thought i was... but then as i slowly walked away i realized that she wasn't looking at me... she was looking at a guy who hurt his friend before... the anger i felt in that stranger disappeared and was replaced by respect... for here is a person putting up her defenses to defend a man she knows to be good... i am convinced though, that if she gave me a chance... she will like me a lot... because goddess, you and i know... that i am not a bad person... and that comforts me....